the science of selling yourself short

lynyrd skynyrd- the ballad of curtis loew

2010-06-04T14:38:00.001-05:00

I miss Dixie. :)

roots ^.^

2009-10-20T08:17:00.001-05:00

♥

Don't stop till you get enough!!

2009-09-25T23:24:00.005-05:00

It seems like an eternity since I've posted anything on here, so I figured I would just add a little uplifting music I've been enjoying lately. This man will always have my respect, and will be missed. If you are a hater, save it for someone who cares :)

woah, black betty (fuck you, death, pt.2)

2009-01-13T11:40:00.008-06:00

R.I.P. Grandma...it would have been her birthday today. i miss her :(

a few weeks before she passed, she pulled me to the side and asked me if i had ever heard this song black betty,by some random rock band, she couldn't remember the name. i had always liked the song and sort of laughed and said yea, grandma, i've heard it. she tells me, well , thats MY song (her name was betty). it mildly amused me, she laughed , which is a laugh that i won't ever forget. rock on, black betty...

the meaning of 46 & 2

2008-12-22T15:03:00.003-06:00

46 & 2 by Tool

original lyrics:

My shadow's
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding in

My shadow..My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within

My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me

I found this amazing interpretation somewhere on the internets, i wish i knew who wrote it so i could credit him.

This is one of Tool's most amazing songs, and really sums up the entire theme of Ænima. This song is about growing, changing, and moving towards the next level of human evolution and conciousness. It's deeply rooted in Jungian theory.

Basically, it's believed that there are three levels of human evolution and each has it's form of conciousness. There's the 1st level with 44 chromosomes. These are primitive peoples like the ancient aborigines in Australia who did not percieve anything outside of themselves. They only saw one large conciousness with no distinguishment between organisms. Then there's the second level with 46 chromosomes. That is us. We are a chaotic disharmonic conciousness that is basically used as a stepping stone between the first and third levels. The third level is 48 chromosomes. (Or 46 & 2, with 2 being the sex chromosomes x & y). This is the higher level of conciousness. Our destination.

But this is where the Jungian theory comes in. It is believed that you can not reach this third level of evolution without first delving into yourself and basically cleansing your conciousness for the next jump. That's where the Shadow comes in. The shadow is basically everything about that is unseen that you are uncomfortable with or hate. This is also known as the Anima (hence the name of the CD).

The last part of the song sums all of this up...

"See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me .."

fuck you, death.

2008-12-16T16:35:00.005-06:00

death..what an ugly word. such a perfect song.. "bro hymn tribute", by pennywise.

RIP Kathy.

To our best friend,
Present past and beyond
Even though you weren't with us too long
Your life is the most precious thing that we could lose ..

nothing need be said here

2008-10-01T22:55:00.003-05:00

fly on freebird

happy birthday, mom. :)

2008-09-17T10:52:00.004-05:00

for anyone who doesn't know me, i don't really care for too much country music..but i love this song. it's for my mom who's birthday is today..i love you mom and miss you so much. and happy birthday!!

Mama I'm alright- Miranda Lambert

alice in chains, "rooster"..unplugged

2008-08-27T00:20:00.000-05:00

RIP LAYNE♥

protest the hero- "blindfolds aside"

2008-06-15T20:39:00.000-05:00

"don't forget me"- red hot chili peppers

2008-04-02T21:43:00.001-05:00

tool- "lateralus"

2008-03-24T18:07:00.003-05:00

the only indescretion i found in the lyrics are "Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.", as opposed to MY body from MY mind..its a tool nazi thing? i've inherited this marvelous trait.

idiot son of an asshole

2008-03-16T18:25:00.001-05:00

2008-01-23T13:50:00.000-06:00

"passive" by a perfect circle

i watched you change

2007-12-31T09:27:00.001-06:00

deftones. "change (in the house of flies) "

happy new year :o)

love comes in colors i can't deny..

2007-11-26T01:07:00.000-06:00

the smashing pumpkins- crush

pumpkins live was great. everything i wanted it to be and more..

2007-10-30T22:39:00.000-05:00

atom and his package - punk rock academy

i saw him live in columbia, sc at a little shithole bar when i was 19 or so..he was just as goofy as he is in this silly vid=P

2007-10-10T09:34:00.000-05:00

not much of a "video", but such a great, great song.

UGK- "one day"

2007-10-04T14:58:00.000-05:00

our lady peace - clumsy

2007-09-24T11:56:00.000-05:00

the smashing pumpkins- rhinoceros

i can't put into words how much i love this song. makes me truly happy when i hear it. and speaking of smashing pumpkins, i got tickets for the Nov 2nd show at the backyard in Austin. Woohoo!!

i need an easy friend, i do with an ear to lend..

2007-09-22T20:32:00.000-05:00

Nirvana- About a Girl (Live) :o)

R.I.P. Layne

2007-09-18T10:35:00.002-05:00

alice in chains - bleed the freak

alice in chains - junkhead

fat mike gets down on bass

2007-09-17T08:25:00.000-05:00

NOFX- Dinosaurs will die

2007-09-16T23:34:00.000-05:00

marilyn manson- this is the new shit ..kick ass video :)

suburban white boys from CA represent!! lol

2007-09-15T09:28:00.000-05:00

weezer - holiday :) i love this song

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!

2007-09-14T12:38:00.000-05:00

marilyn manson - the fight song

nirvana love

2007-09-13T14:02:00.000-05:00

Since i really have nothing better to talk about nowadays besides music, i figured i'd use this to post some videos i enjoy...thank god for youtube

it's hard for me to put into words the profound love i feel for nirvana. why must all the most amazing artists be the ones to die first? (rhetorical question, thanks :P ) Joplin, Hendrix, Morrison,...Keith Moon, John Lennon,Cobain, Brad Nowell, Layne Stanley..-sigh- the list sadly could go on forever.

RIP to the most amazing artist to ever walk the earth..

1st post

2007-09-12T12:17:00.000-05:00

I'm not sure what i'm going to put in this blog yet. this could get interesting ;P